Tuesday, May 18, 2004

I can't stop the world...

I checked my grade online, and I got an A-...yay!  I guess that means I got an A- on my paper.  It also makes me wonder if my professor actually read my paper, because it was actually 14 pages of desperation and not really deserving of an A.  But I'll take it!
Now, my daughter only has two more days left of school, and then, thankfully, school is out for her too!  I say thankfully because this has been a VERY hard year for her, and I'm just thankful she made it through okay.  She went to the doctor today and we have some new things to try and hopefully this summer will be a good, healing one.
I have her in day camp for most of the summer...I wish so much that I could be home with her right now, but I have to work.  The best summer I've had in recent memory was in 1998, when I was laid off in May, had the whole summer off, and then went back to work in August!  At first, of course, I didn't view being laid off as a blessing, but it turned out to be just that, as we had a great summer together. 
I've been going to the gym and working out pretty faithfully since last December, and now, for once, I'm kind of looking forward to the summer.  I was pretty much the most out of shape person in the world when I started working out.  The only reason I started was because I was taking my daughter to the Y every time the doors opened, it seemed, and one of the workers there just really badgered me about just sitting there when I could be doing something...(to which I said, I am doing something, I'm READING!)...
Why didn't anyone ever tell me about this whole working out thing before?  Maybe they did, actually, but I never paid attention...  I can't believe I didn't do it sooner, and I'm so mad at myself for all the time I wasted.  After five months, I'm stronger, I have more stamina, I look better, I feel about a million times better, and I'm even more coordinated (had nowhere to go but up, there)!
So this summer, I'm ready!  Mother-daughter hiking excursions, here we come!  And I'm really excited about whitewater rafting, it's something I always love to do in the summer, but this time I may actually be effective at it (I've been doing the row/rear delt machine, you know!). 
Only three problems remain with this summer and my new active outdoor lifestyle, now that we've gotten the whole shortness of breath and gasping for air issues out of the way:
1.  THE HEAT.  I would prefer to live in Alaska, but since I can't, I'm going to suck it up and be happy.  And maybe duck into an air-conditioned room every chance I get.
2.  THE BUGS.  I guess my problems with bugs are pretty well-documented here.  I resolve to use OFF and ignore the smell and stickiness!
3.  THE SUN.  I usually only go out at night...I'm one of those cave-dwellers.  I can use sunblock, but it's the whole principle of the thing...the sun is just far too bright to comfortable be in it.  (you know, heavenly hurt...)  But I will try very hard to be a sun-lover this summer and leave the cave-dwellers behind!
I hope this summer can be a new beginning for my family, and for anyone else, who really needs this...