Sunday, April 28, 2013


I'm enjoying some small things:
1. My new iPhone - I really love it
2. `Imagine Dragons` and `The Lumineers`
3. Netflix
4. My SeanCody membership
5. All the free time I have now since I stopped playing on Facebook.

That I'm enjoying anything at all is a good sign...I'm really hoping my doctors have hit the right pill combo to keep me steady and sane.  I've been to work every day five weeks in a row (yay!).  And I've thought about doing other stuff...that part is taking me baby steps, but at least I'm thinking about it...right?

Friday, April 19, 2013

There are billions of heroes...

There are two heroes in this picture:
The man who stopped the tanks...and the driver of the first tank, who stopped.

Anne was spending her teen years being hidden away in an attic from the Nazis; yet still she believed that people were good at heart.

And I agree.  Bad people can shout and make bombs and kill, but billions of good people will show courage and save lives and prevail.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Just a little...unwell.

I've been chronically depressed since my teens, and taking medicine for it for the last ten or fifteen years or so.

But four years ago, my grandmother was diagnosed with cancer, and not even the medicine could stop my mental breakdown.

I still don't know why I stumbled and fell, and others didn't.

I wrecked my car.
I broke my leg.
I went on a mad online spending spree with money I didn't have.
I landed myself in a psychiatric hospital.
I no longer drive.
I no longer handle my own money.
I had emergency surgery.
I no longer leave my house except to go to work.

I live for the weekends, when I can sleep.  And sleep, and sleep.

And trust me, I'm better than I was.  Two years ago, I wasn't leaving the house AT ALL.

I promise I'm trying.