This latest time, it was at Kroger...late...the store was empty, especially the huge produce section. My boyfriend had wandered off, leaving me to get my daughter's bananas.
Apparently, the stress of picking bananas can trigger a panic attack.
There were rows, and rows, of bananas. Groups of two, three, four, five, etc. Yellow ones, slightly green ones, green ones. Big ones, small ones.
I couldn't decide. The task of actually having to pick something out of this mass of yellow and green suddenly seemed like a matter of life and death, and I couldn't do it...
(and I can't believe, that just sitting here writing this, I'm starting to hyperventilate again.)
I don't know how long I stood there, completely helpless. Finally, I saw my boyfriend staring at me from the other end of the section, with an 'are you dawdling again and hurry up!' look on his face, which was sufficiently normal enough to get me to grab some bananas, any bananas!, and get out of that aisle.
This has been happening to me a lot lately, only not usually with bananas. I even called my doctor about it, but flaked out at the last minute and didn't go to the appointment. It's just too embarrassing...because these moments I've been having are triggered by the silliest things...and then it's over and it's like it never happened.
Except that I don't know if I can ever go to that banana section again. Maybe if I went to a different store it would be okay...does Walgreens carry bananas?