Tuesday, March 9, 2004

I think it's time for Prozac

I woke up late today, but not too late.  6 a.m.  But I still didn't get myself ready to go to work.  I did manage to get my daughter up and take her to school.  I came back home and still had time to get ready and make it to work on time.  

Instead, I just sat there.  Finally, I took my shower, came out, and sat on my bed some more.  9 a.m. Finally, the moment came when I was supposed to be at work.  I had to decide whether I was not going, or going in for just a half-day. 

Finally, I hit upon the third option, just be late.  That decided, I called my supervisor, let her know, finished getting ready, and went to work.  I got there at 10 a.m. 

Since January 1 of this year, I've missed five days of work, been late twice, and left early once. 
I went on some shopping sprees and have, literally, dozens of new books that I need to read.  (Some people go shopping for clothes.  I go shopping for books.)  Now I can't stand the sight of them lying around.  They remind me of everything I have to do and that I'm not doing, and also the exorbitant amount of money I spent.

I could go on but I'm now more depressed than I was when I started.  This didn't make me feel better like I thought it would.  I don't know what my problem is, I just know that I'm in a major funk.

I do find it interesting that I've missed lots of work, yet I haven't missed a class this semester, and I'm faithfully going to the gym three days a week.  Maybe not that interesting, after all.  It just means that I hate my job.  Also definitely trying to do too much, between my extracurricular activities, and ferrying my daughter around town to her extracurricular activities. 

I just want to sleep.  All the time.


  1. I didn't go to work again yesterday. It was a conscious decision, I thought I needed to get myself together. I'm not sure yet if it worked.

  2. Left early again Monday. I've officially lost count of my slack.

  3. Michelle, oh how i can relate to your words, "I just want to sleep.  All the time."  believe me, i understand how hard it is to get moving some days, most days.  i understand all too well, unfortunately.  YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

  4. You were spreading yourself way too thin instead of giving yourself a much needed break.

  5. Yeah... I think this is where things started gradually sliding downhill, and then they accelerated FAST starting in 2009.