Sunday, October 13, 2013

Let the moon follow me home...


It's widely known that I am a soft touch. I am incapable of saying no. If you ask for me something, I'll give it to you. If I see you need something, I'll share what I have. I am very easy.

So, in January, when Chelsea says, Best Friend's dad is kicking him out and he has nowhere to go, can he stay here for a couple days? Of course I said yes. It was cold, and he had nowhere to go.

Best Friend is still here. It's October. That's nine months he's been here.

NINE MONTHS.

Best Friend sleeps on the floor in the living room. When he wakes up, he sits up, gets on his computer, and, still sitting on the floor, plays on his computer all day until it's time to go to sleep. 

Best Friend does this every day. No job, no school, no cleaning, no cooking. I'm beginning to see why everybody keeps kicking him out.

In the meantime, it's been a struggle having to feed an extra person. He eats a lot.

He told me a couple of months ago he was transgender. But he never talked to me about it again. Chelsea calls him, her, except for when she forgets and calls him, him. But he didn't ask me to call him, her, or tell me a different name, and he dresses the same. But okay, past tense, he, present tense, her.

She's gotten into fights with Chelsea and threatened to leave, has even disappeared for a couple days, leaving Chelsea devastated. 

Best Friend is supposed to be on medication for schizophrenia but doesn't take it. She says she can't get a job because she has a record that needs to be taken care of but she doesn't have the money.

Dwayne is so upset over the situation he is beside himself. I didn't listen to him, you see. He wanted me to say no. He always wants me to say no. We'd be several thousand dollars richer if I could just say no. Well, past tense. Times are hard now and there's no more thousands or even hundreds to give away. :(

I don't want Best Friend out on the streets with nowhere to go. That defeats the purpose of her staying here all this time. I've tried to have talks with Best Friend about owning her life, self-sufficiency, and having a plan...but I don't think they've gotten through.

THE POINT IS, I really don't mind Best Friend being here...and that's the problem. It's not fair to Dwayne. It's not good for Chelsea. It's not healthy for me - I'm supposed to be working to get out of my bedroom and instead, I'm stuck in here because Best Friend lives in the living room.

I suspect there's something in my lease agreement stating Best Friends aren't supposed to stay overnight, indefinitely.

This may be silly, but the only thing that really worries me is Best Friend getting upset again, leaving one day, and leaving the door open, where my kitty can get out and get lost. Everyone else is upset over things I don't care about. I just want my kitty to be safe.

That's all. It's an unwinnable situation. It seems I truly have adopted a 22-year old child; one who will never work, clean or cook; and will apparently never leave.

Please, don't tell me how dumb I am, I tell myself every day. I guess I just felt like telling YOU. :)

I'm sure it'll all work out...

21 comments:

  1. I don't think you're dumb at all. You have a big heart and when you have a big heart it's hard to say no. Hopefully Best Friend soon realizes on their own that they're being a bit much :)

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    1. Aw, Keith, thanks. :)
      I don't know, Best Friend just asked me yesterday if she could put up a sheet in the living room to block her sleeping area from view.
      This is what really hit home to me that Best Friend has settled in for the long haul.
      So I said yes, of course. LOLOL

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  2. I think that you should not just throw him out but that you do need him to make a transition plan, say within a month to find some temp work and somewhere else to stay. He knows this day has been coming.

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    1. I know. He found a job, worked one day last week, came home complaining about how sore he was, and didn't go back. :( Also, he was supposed to go stay with another friend in September.
      I'm not sure what happened to that plan.

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  3. Yeah, not dumb you just want to help. But after a month or 2 with no sign of him/her doing anything, they'd get the boot at my shore. But I would have said no to begin with lol i'm so mean.

    But as long as you allow it they are going to keep doing it. Free everything, why not. Show him/her the door.

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    1. Him/her...LOL, that's what my workmates call her, because half the time I forget and correct myself.
      I can't be mean...I have to do it nicely. :)

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  4. Yes, similar to what Laoch said. This person needs a two month deadline, or you'll have a second child forever. I'm pretty sure you don't want that. Egads.

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    1. I knoooow. I have no idea how I got myself in this situation. It sounds so bizarre when I say it out loud!

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  5. Big sigh. Well, my dear, I think you need to dig into the lease, find the pertinent info, present it and say if Best Friend wants to stay, Best Friend will have to get on the lease and start paying for the rent. It may scare Best Friend into trying to go find another freebie situation. I think I also remember you posting about having to move soon for renovations on the building? Perfect time to make BF's stay official (and cost something) or be over.

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    1. Yes. Thanks, Suze. This all involves me doing something other than hiding away from the situation, holed up in my room. I guess I just realized I was doing that. Thank so much... :)

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    2. It's not easy to do that. So much harder for you to take the action than for people to blithely read of your situation and then just spout off advice (speaking of myself.) But I think you've given enough to get BF on their feet. Things are supposed to evolve. There are moments when we're down and out and we need. But we can't stay there. *You* work at evolving all the time, I read it here. Would you require any less of yourself? Then, why feel obligated to require any less of people whom you want to see grow?

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    3. Yes, you're absolutely right.
      I am so scared of confrontation.
      Worried about everybody.
      But yes, this week, we'll have to form an exit plan.
      :(

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  6. Hey Michelle, if more people were as nice as you there'd be a lot less homelessness that's for sure. But it must be wearying by now with no end in sight. I hope a solution can be found.

    But meanwhile, 'it is more blessed to give than receive' and 'one good turn deserves another.' Eventually good things will be heaped on your blessed little head!

    Denise

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    1. Hi Denise, thank you so much! Truthfully I feel like if someone needs help and I am in a position to offer it, then I should. But I guess I also should be trying harder to urge Best Friend out of the next....

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  7. I don't think you're dumb. You're compassionate, and that's not a bad thing. But your also enabling Best Friend to keep being an irresponsible sponge. That's not in BF's best interest, mental illness or no.

    Sounds like it's time to set a limit on BF moving out, then stick to it and change the locks. That's my 2c. I'll shut up now.

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    1. Yeah, I don't want to enable anybody!
      And oh man, it's gonna be awful changing the locks...didn't even think about that.
      Darn.

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  8. Oh my. *covering eyes* Protect that kitty, eh?

    LOL. I'm sure you'll get it figured out, Michelle, but I'm fairly certain my husband would have shoved "best friend" out the door after the second week. Here's wishing you the best!

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    1. Thank you!

      Oh, believe me, Dwayne feels the same way! He is so frustrated with the situation, and a lot of his frustration is stemming from the fact that now that he's in a wheelchair, he feels like he doesn't have the 'authority' to get rid of Best Friend that he normally would have. We're just adjusting to a lot of different things at one time right now. :(

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  9. I believe BEST FRIEND needs some solid guidelines and boundaries implemented. The mentally ill do much better with structure in their lives. It's okay to let him/her know what you will and won't tolerate. I think Chelsea needs to step up also and talk to BEST FRIEND...maybe if you all sit down as a "family", there'll be strength in numbers and you all can finally have your say.

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    1. That's a really good idea. The last couple of times I tried to get us to talk, Best Friend wouldn't, and Chelsea just cried. I think I'm going to have to get Chelsea prepared beforehand...

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