Saturday, June 17, 2006

lost entry...

am i falling for this again?...
i put my heart and soul into an entry, clicked save, and it disappeared into aol no man's land...
what was it about? something about the cast and stitches on my hand, and how it's affected my typing ability, and how i'm using my hand anyway even though i'm not supposed to and even though it hurts really bad, and we had major drama today and i'm tired of it and i'm having trouble getting out of bed, and how i'm falling into a deep black hole of depression again even though my medicine is supposed to prevent that and that might be a clue that it might need to be changed, and i ran out of heart medicine and oh yeah i was going to go back to bed and get under the covers and not come out again until things got much much better
and then of course my plans got foiled by stupid aol losing my stupid entry.
so i restarted my computer, took a walk into the living room and rescued my kitty and put her where she belongs (you know, in bed with me)
and wrote this
and whether this one works or not, I really am going to sleep now.  Tomorrow's Father's Day and we have to honor my grandpa.  I also have to call my dad.  Father's Day makes me uncomfortable for my daughter's sake...she doesn't have a father, never has had one...I don't know how she feels about it.  I feel terrible about it.
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3 comments:

  1. emeraldcalfJune 18, 2006 at 6:05 AM

    I hope that you feel better soon. Please get your medication adjusted for your sake, as well as your daughter's.

    I understand how you feel about Father's Day...I have the same issues.

    ~Heather

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  2. redbaranjjJune 18, 2006 at 6:35 PM

    (((Hugs)))

    I have been having problems with leaving an entry too lately, so I am back to typing out my entries in mail, and then copying and pasting it over to my journal...that way when AOL acts up...I still have my entry in case there is a problem and it just doesn't disappear into space.

    I know all too well about that deep black hole...call your doc and get your medication adjusted.  

    If you ever need to talk, you know where I am.  

    *huge hugs*

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  3. rhondashkfreeJune 20, 2006 at 12:39 PM

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    Oh Crud!   Don't ya hate it when that happens?  What I do is pre-type the entry on a word document, then copy and paste to my journal.  That way if it didn't save properly I don't lose the whole thing.  Believe me, that very thing happend to me in the past.  Have a Beautiful Day.  Rhonda
    http://journals.aol.com/rhondashkfree/RiverOfDiamonds/
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