Sunday, February 23, 2014

I'll never get used to it...

Meadow with Poppies, 1902 - Pal Szinyei-Merse


CAUTION: AMBIEN POST

I am trying to write with extra care and precision but my eyes are mostly shut and I'm thinking about puppies for some reason, which has nothing to do with my post...

Oh dear, it's already gone off the rails!


Anyway, just thought I'd provide a weekend update and a promise to do better in regards to my blog. :)

Update:

1. Still moving. I have to turn in my letter by Friday. I tend to procrastinate. I need to be out of here by April 1, yay!!!

2. Still sickly. I have discovered that I CANNOT eat dark chocolate. I was given bad information and so for Valentine's Day, certain people gave me some wonderful dark chocolate to eat. It was good. The ensuing migraine was very, very bad.

3. Dwayne finally got his letter on Friday, approving his disability. TWO YEARS and TWO DENIALS later, and two years of no income, before he could get this approval. Because he has not had access to good medicine during this whole time unless he paid for it out of pocket, he has deteriorated to where now he is in a wheelchair 99% of the time. His poor hands and fingers are permanently disfigured, the joints are twisted and knotted...he has the hands, knees and hips of a 90-year old. He is only 46.

4. It's hard not to be angry at the government in this kind of situation. His savings are gone.

5. But I guess all of us are in bad shape. I know the economy is supposed to be getting better (really?), but I'm not feeling it.

6. My brother, for instance, lived with my sister-in-law and their baby at a very nice house that he had owned for years. Then the Recession happened. The house got sold, and my brother moved his family into an apartment. They had another baby, and my brother moved his family again, into the apartments where I live. It's the WRONG WAY. As your family gets bigger, your house is supposed to get bigger...not smaller!

7. As for me, my rent here has gone up and up, but my pay stays the same. Oh excuse me, the company raises our hourly pay every year, but its minuscule, and insignificant since our health insurance goes way up every year and any raise we see is immediately swallowed up by the health insurance.

8. Okay, I gotta wrap this up because I forgot what my original mission was and I've fallen asleep 30 or 40 times now. Ambien 1, Michelle 0.

9. We'll continue later and see if I can stay awake for Round 2. Should be great fun.

Goodnightzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz................

24 comments:

  1. Poppies, puppies. Courage madame, something new begins.

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    1. Thank you, Geo.! You know, when I thought about this today, I did think, huh, puppies, poppies, :) LOL!!!

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  2. I thought you sounded very coherent. I'm sorry life is rough. So what does this mean for Dwayne, medically? What can be done?

    Is the floor sleeper moving to a new floor? Maybe in with your brother? Heh.

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    1. Floor sleeper SAYS he has somewhere to go...I'll believe it when I see it! I have visions of him stowing away in a box...

      Dwayne dreams of knee replacement. They balk at doing that on someone so young, but that's the only way he'll be able to walk again. Nothing can be done for his hands, I don't think. The damage is done...we'll have to see what the doctors say.

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  3. I am really hoping the economy eventually turns itself around someday. Your right, when your family gets bigger, your place is supposed to get bigger rather than smaller.

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    1. I can't wait for times to get better. I think back fondly... :)

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  4. You're brave, Michelle! Writing a post on Ambien ha ha. I tried to write a post on Tylenol 3 after I had dental work done…whew! What a mess.

    Just a wild guess, but I'll bet someone said dark chocolate was "good" for migraines. I was told the same thing and it couldn't be further from the truth.

    Feel better!

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    1. Thank you! :)

      Yes...I was told dark chocolate was good for migraines! WRONG! The opposite!
      Now I know! LOLOL

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  5. On the other hand, you now have 100% greater access to invisible goats.

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    1. Oh so true...I need to catch up, don't I!?!

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  6. So sucks that everything just keeps going up well we make less and less, dirty sobs still sit upon high and get their money though. can relate to paying a ton to fix myself too

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    1. That's what's infuriating, the CEO's still make their millions...such a divide between the rich and everyone else. Ugh...

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  7. Feel winded. But I also feel like I wish I could kick the ass of all the baddies in your life, Dwayne's life, your brother's life and your sister's life.

    Knit with you in spirit, M.

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    1. Awww, thank you so much, Suze...I so appreciate it! :)

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  8. You have great talent in writing. Even though things were not so rosy your words and style of writing were so good but strong enough to get the message across to the readers. High time for you to try your luck in writing something :)
    No wonder your blog is getting popular day by day. More readers, more views and more popularity ! If you apply for 'google adsense', sure, your blog will get approved and that will fetch you some extra income by way of ads !
    Surprising, Dwayne could not get timely medical care in the USA ! I do not think it will be like this here in India, somebody will come for help, though India is still developing, we have excellent hospitals with very modern facilities.
    There are many American expats living in the middle east and elsewhere having good jobs and awesome living conditions.
    Good post, Michelle ! Try visit India, a sunny, tropical country where people take each day as it comes !
    God bless you and your family :)

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    1. That's so kind of you to say, thank you so very much Raj!
      I would love to visit India one day! I have a couple of friends who go there regularly. So far away!
      God bless you as well!

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  9. I feel your pain. Although the economy has not made us move, we have had to cut back on most things. We spend next to nothing. We try to live off what we have. I hope it gets better so your brother can upgrade his home.

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    1. Us too...the days of going out to eat and spending money on ourselves are over. Me too!

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  10. 10. Hang in there! You have many people who love and admire you.
    P.S. Should I send you a bottle of poo-pourri so you can laugh out loud every time you use it?

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    1. Thank you so much! OMG the poo-pourri...I've got to watch that video again, that was so funny! LOL

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  11. Wait, I thought we had this conversation and you were converting over to cheese. ;) Michelle, here's hoping all comes together for the move and the sun shine brighter in the coming days. (But not the ones you're dealing with migraines.) Stay strong.

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    1. I know I was supposed to convert, I knooooow; but I just wanted the chocolate so bad!
      I have learned my lesson. :(
      Thank you so much, Crystal!!

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