I don't want to wait...

I can't believe I did this. What possessed me to confront him? What is wrong with me? I was just sitting there with an idea in my head and next thing I know I'm embarrassing myself to no end. He was very gracious and calm about it.  He was probably just waiting until he could get away, and then call it off.

All the doubts and hurts that I've accumulated for the past eight years just came out, all at once. I just didn't feel like pretending anymore.