I don't drive anymore. At all. I've lost my confidence.
I don't play any of my instruments anymore. I just can't. I've lost my music.
I don't handle my money anymore. It goes to my mother, who pays my bills for me. I've basically lost my adulthood.
Just putting these things down on paper make it seem a little overwhelming. I really put myself in a deep dark hole to climb out of, right? And these are just the highlights.
But still. I am getting better. I really am. I'm getting up every day. I'm going to work. (mostly.) I'm doing something besides sleeping.
I won't be dragged back down. I am getting better.
I know you are. I can tell by your writing.
ReplyDeleteThank you Susie.
DeleteIt's really nice to hear it from someone else, I can't tell you how much I appreciate it. :)
I have long-consulted a Dictionary Of Philosophy (Peter Angeles, Harper&Row,1981), from Barnes % Noble, that devotes a lot of attention to formal and informal fallacies. They correspond quite closely to a list my therapist gave me last week of Cognitive Distortions. Thought I'd share that here, a new study for me. Thoughts?
ReplyDeleteOoh, I'd like to see that list, and I guess I need to read that book. I remember in therapy most of it was stripping away `cognitive distortions` and getting at the simple truth. I still have trouble with that in my life. I revert to old patterns...I'm trying to shake it off.
DeleteGet some sunlight ! Smile and keep on blogging ! Laughter is the best medicine ! :)
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